Week 11: Luminous beings are we, not this crude matter.

This past week has been a very extensive and eventful week full of a lot going on. I do have much to tell.

Dance-wise, its been fantastic. For the most part. Beginning my week I took extra classes, and stretched a whole ton on Monday. This led to an aggravated amount of soreness throughout the rest of the week, so bad was this soreness that I was unable to fully dance on Wednesday and couldn’t show up to morning ballet or contemporary on Thursday. (I made it up by going to second ballet class on Thursday). Also, in the first ballet class on Monday I landed on my second toe during a grand jete.. Yea, I know, it sucks. Its still quite bruised and hurts a bit, but I’m good for the most part. I mean, I can dance.

I did feel myself improving the entire week, after the soreness. I also had the pleasure of watching Hubbard Street at the Art Institute of Chicago. This was the funniest and most entertaining performance, for Christmas, I have ever seen. They were interpreting their vision of the Creche, which is a new display at the Art Institute (which is FREE on Thursdays for all Illinois residents, I HIGHLY suggest)! I thought I’d be watching a very pretty dance (and who wouldn’t want to?!) but they were interacting with the audience, yelling, improvising, and just having a great time. They turned the entire stage and audience into a living Creche. It was the highlight of my week. There isn’t anything they can’t do! They even had a Q&A for all those who wanted to stay afterwards and know more about the process or the dancers. This upcoming weekend is ONE THOUSAND PIECES, do not miss out on this chance to watch! You will not regret it. http://www.hubbardstreetdance.com/index.php?option=com_k2&view=proditem&id=213:winter-series&Itemid=58

Also, last night, when I got home from a long days work I was able to watch the CSUDH dance concert’s LIVE streaming of Origins. I enjoyed myself watching all my old friends dance, so much! I really enjoyed the energy of the African, Hip Hop, Bollywood, and Belly dance. Those were a lot of fun. I thought Ken Walker and Nathan’s works were very nicely done! I completely understood what they were getting at, and thought it was lovely. I was astounded by Marco (my best friend), Jeff Hendrix and Doris Ressl’s works!! Marco did a contemporary interpretation of the traditional-folk dance of the deer, which I had seen the solo being worked on when I returned from the HSDC Summer Intensive, except he added a few more people to help develop this traditional tale. Jeff’s work was about the Holocaust, showing shocking images of the event (along with quotes) in a video, but the dance was a jazz-ballroom fusion to a beautiful traditional blues-y song. Doris’ work was a flawless trio, set on two faculty and an alumni. This is my favorite of all her works, thus far. The costumes, lighting, and choreography, it was all there! Bravo to ALL of my DH friends, I miss you all so much..Very happy I got to see you all and all of your growth. 

Lately, I have been watching all of the Star Wars epsidoes: I, II, III, IV, V, and VI. I just finished VI. I must say that it got me quite emotional. Something VERY strange happened this week. So here is the back story: I don’t quite remember my father much, from when I was younger, so I don’t really know him at all. I was raised by my loving and AMAZING mother (and wouldn’t have it any other way, for anything in the world). Ever since Thanksgiving, I have been in contact with one of his daughters, who sent me a couple of pictures of him (since I have never seen him). It was quite strange to see how he looks, I mean I’m not too familiar with the feeling of having a father or anything. The biggest thing that happened is that I spoke with my mother about this and she said I should talk to him and get to know him, since he is my father, so I gave his daughter my number to give to him. She said she would give it to him when she saw him. Later that night, while I was sleeping, someone called with a private number and left a voicemail. The voicemail said: “Hey mijo, I love you.”. I am more than certain that this was him, and it is a very WEIRD feeling, I’m not so sure how to react. He, or they, haven’t called back since.. A part of me was excited, and yet, another part of me was a bit confused. What should I do? So many emotions going through my head and heart. Do I forgive and hope he calls again, then build a relationship.. or do I build barriers because he never tried to make contact with me growing up?! Ahhh… I just finished (2 mins ago) episode VI and watching the story of Luke and Vader, I can’t help but feeling like Luke. 

This song gets to me. I suggest you close your eyes, open your heart and listen to it. See how it makes you feel:

I am a Jedi. 🙂

Week 9: Do or not do..There is no try

This week hit me like a flash of lightning. Very quick, and with unexpected surprises. Not bad, it was actually a great week, but it was filled with learning a lot of lessons (the hard way).

Monday:

Beruite ballet class was successfully fantastic! I saw growth, and was very pleased (even if I was all over the place).

Lizzie continued with her phrase from the week before. Thankfully, I felt more comfortable this day to dive into the work and focus on refining and experimentation. She always says how class time is “lab” time and I couldn’t agree more.

Work.

Tuesday:

Nicole was stuck in traffic, but thankfully she was able to give us an accelerated Pilates class in twenty minutes! It helped.

Claire’s ballet class was great. A few (or a lot) of corrections given, but I love being corrected (a lot), I felt fantastic! Today seemed as though yesterday’s good juices were still flowing inside me.

Victor was back this week, and he gave such an awesome class. He mixed it up a little bit with his combinations, which made class much more exciting!! I really focused on initiating movement from my pelvis and allowing the gaga ripples or waves to affect my entire body. Oh yea!

Work.

Wednesday:

Laura’s ballet class went well. Focused on my back and arms, as well as turn out. I was trying to be as detailed as I could with my placement, alignment, and focus.

Kristina’s class was fantastic! She was focusing on various different aspects of movement analysis based off of her own experiences. We did a few more inversions, which I completely love doing! I wish this class was offered more than once a week at the pro level, and more than twice a week total.

Beruite’s ballet class was great, but I couldn’t help but worry about her. I believe she was in some sort of pain. I couldn’t imagine not having her classes each week. 😦 I do hope she recovers nicely.

I went to get my first ever spa and massage experience. It was… heaven. Swedish massage. Ahhhh

Thursday:

Okay, so far, everythings been great…until today. Julie (director of DanceWorks Chicago), whom I had taken the workshop a few weekends ago, taught ballet today. This was the lowest point of my week. I’m not sure why, but this class did not enter my body. She gave a great class, but I was not able to get into it. Actually, I ended up feeling a little bad about myself. A sense of doubt or pain, of longing to be better.. This class didn’t end well with me. But I tried to gather it up for the next one.

Frankie’s class was very good. I felt like I was doing something well, but the thought and the overwhelming FEELING of the ballet class prior led me to doubt myself the entire class. This feeling actually overcame me for a little bit after class. Thankfully, I have fantastic friends here who were kind enough to give me hugs. 🙂

Work.

Friday:

Seeking to redeem myself, I worked my butt off in Claire’s ballet class. I found inspiration from Yoda (which I’ll talk about later). I tried pushing myself in this class and found that I was quite successful, at least in my own eyes. I felt fantastic in this class and know that I will continue this trend from now on.

Gaga was great, but very exhausting! Its one hour and fifteen minutes of non-stop moving/improvising, then another half hour of choreography, or more improv. Today we worked on choreography, in pair, using the techniques we learned in class. I focused on light/heavy, curves, swirls, distance, and waves. It was a great class.

Lastly, we had Claire’s scholarship Pilates. We had more laughs than anything in this class, but it made it more fun. I do love Pilates!

I treated myself today to buying thrift store sweat pants, watching Catching Fire, and being restful with myself. 🙂

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Okay, so I learned a lot this week. For one, not to take anything for granted. We only get one body, and after the spa/massage, I realized that we need to take better care of them. Even as dancers, we cannot just work our bodies like machines and expect maximum output. We do need to give ourselves days to express gratitude to ones self.

Secondly, I learned that I have no limits. Actually, I learned this Thursday night. From Yoda. I saw this clip, and it made me realize that he is COMPLETELY correct! We cannot just be “in the middle” with something, we either are or we aren’t. And I am.

Hubbard Street and HS2 are having auditions in March, and you better be sure that I will be there. I will work MY BUTT off to give myself the best chance that I can ever give myself of making HS2. There is time to grow and improve, and yet no time at all. I will stretch myself beyond my reaches.

At this audition, I go in as Ruben.