Yesterday was quite difficult.. I can say that I wear my necklace no more for the duration of this intensive, and my yoga practices are for myself now. I need to recover. The heart is not something easy to mend, but is easily broken. I wish them the best and I will still dedicate my chants for a better life for them, because everyone deserves it. Everyone deserves love if they want it, and so do I.
I still love and wish with all my heart things would just work. Maybe one day. I just hate feeling like I was not enough.. Okay I’m done, sorry for the mopey post.
I’ve lost 10 pounds since I’ve been here.. Not sure if that’s good or not, maybe it’s muscle and less fat. That’s the hope. I moved again, but this place is extra special.. My host is the coolest guy ever! He has an obsession with space (like myself) and here’s his view from downtown:
Pretty incredible. Eating breakfast now for my third week. I will move past this. I will not allow my personal life into that studio, because it is my sacred space.